Tick Tock Goes The Clock....

"They say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself" - Andy Warhol

TIME. It's ticking.  

Sounds a little off to many but the statement surely explains a lot to quite a few people. At least it does to me. Time, they say changes everything, well? Now how true can that be when it is you who needs to solve matters. It is you who needs to forget the past, it is you who needs to mend situations, it is you who needs to think, act, react, judge and take control of your life. 

So, you still think it's Time, who is kind of cool! Tick tock goes the clock, and all you do is wait, wait till it's all over, wait for things to go haywire, wait for nothing to work out anymore. And finally end of it all, you find Time has betrayed you yet another time and run away. 

Good times, bad times, better times and worse times. You can hold nothing back. But there is surely one thing you can hold on to. Yourself. It is yourself that makes you keep going and not Time. The best time comes to you because you have earned it, the reason you go through the worst time at some point in your life, is because you deserved it. You are responsible for everything that happens, and not Time. Because you have underestimated yourself and have let others do so too. So, where is She playing a role in this?

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Do you feel you can trust Her? Hang on, can you see Her mocking at you? Can you see Her playing games wearing a cloak of disguise? Can you see how relentlessly She is trying Her best to tick faster? And you like a fool are just waiting. Waiting for your life to settle, waiting for the right path to curve itself. Your anticipation never seem to seize. Does it? It goes on flowing with every heart beat and you become completely oblivious to the fact that She is gone! A Time gone forever. 

And once again She fooled you! And you have let Her. What are you doing now, crying it out? Poor you!

It is an inevitable mistake that you commit, I commit, everyone of us commit. We trust Time. We keep faith in her to mend situations, people and circumstances. Bring a change in your life. Act now. Be a survivor and guard yourself. Be a player and win it all. Be life and live it. 

Look at Her, she is ticking away to glory! 

Choices....

 “No one else can ever make your choices for you. Your choices are yours alone. They are as much a part of you as every breath you will take, every moment of your life.” - Anonymous

Choices...They can kill you. 

Standing at one of those crossroads of life, I have understood and realized  that each step we take is intricately woven with a choice. A choice that we had to make at the cost of hurting people.  But, nothing really comes free. 

You stand in the middle with a wide 'elastic' string in your hand. Two of your loved ones stand at each end. Both of them tug and pull, to drag you to their side, making it more difficult for you to stand balanced. But you try hard to remain neutral, try your best not to be biased, not to defend any one of the two. But you fail so miserably. 

Both of them keep questions in front of you, questions you find difficult to answer. Questions that compel you to question yourself. But, your mind suddenly starts acting like a jigsaw puzzle. But how long are you going to stand there. You need to move forward, take a step. You know you can't last long, you have to make a CHOICE.

...And what's worse, you can't afford to look back. Yet, your past pulls you behind like a magnet, making you think of all choices that you had made, choices and decisions that were so wrong that it nearly took away your sanity. 

But now, you need to let go of the past feelings. You need to concentrate on the current choice that you need to make. A wrong step would prove to be fatal. Any side of the string you go, the other side would stretch away with the elastic string, and finally you would be left with nothing but a 'broken string'. 

But, you would not like to lose any of the two persons, you can't afford to. You bang your head, you cry aloud, go through sleepless nights, lose your sanity, and you just can't come out with a solution. 

You know, that no matter what choice you make, it is going to go against you! But then you ask yourself, if it's going to be worth it in the end. With choice comes a sacrifice. A cost. What if the one you sacrifice it all for is not worth anything? What if, you lose yourself in the process? What if nothing works out and all your loved ones go against you in the end, just because of this one choice that you make now? What if, ten years down the line you find no one by your side. Not even the one you made the choice for? 

What if, what if, what if.......It's all so nightmarish!

Every one of us go through such a crucial and cruel point in life when we need to decide on something. For someone. While some choices made prove fruitful, maximum of the others just go for a complete toss. 

But you know what, it's ok. It's ok as long as you don't lose faith in yourself. It' ok as long as you believe you have taken the right decision. It's ok if you feel that it is all going to be worth if not forever but for few  special moments in life....

No one makes the choice for you. It's perfectly fine, because it's your choice. You made the choice because you fell in love with it. Be possessive about it. Because your CHOICE is yours alone. 

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How Much Are You Worth?

"Self-worth comes from one thing - thinking that you are worthy". Wayne Dyer

Just how much are you worth, to yourself and others around you? A penny, million dollars or priceless? Have you ever given it a thought? You might be leading a life, when you are loved and truly cared for. But there comes a time when your being starts to lose a meaning to your loved one and you start doubting yourself.

In life, it is important to stand up for yourself, voice your opinion, live your own life and do what you want to do. But love and care almost always binds you in doing something else just to see that sparkling smile on his face. And you are completely satisfied and happy doing it, like joyous that you are! You are gonna go all the way, break rules, step beyond boundaries to love him and do everything you can....

But then there comes day when you are bound to question yourself what is exactly your worth? You are going to find people telling you that your one mistake, a single wrong-doing leaves everything you ever did, UNDONE! You hear that, believe in it and you break down. What utterances! What loud words! Incapable of you to take it in! But then you do, you comply thinking yourself to be absolutely unworthy for the person's love and care! 

But still you live and you love, because that one person is rooted there beside you like your pillar.....

But wait, there is a question I keep asking myself. What is more vital for my living being - what others think of me, or what I think of myself. Is it really important to take in how others judge me, or where I see myself standing? But then all goes in vain when you have already believed in their words. 

You are going to come across people, in varieties. While some would stay, others would leave. Some with footprints, and others silently. Your parents, friends, lovers, all of them might judge you from time to time. Blame you, confront you, question you, break you and again make you, because they love you with all their mighty hearts.

Living life with people around, it is not quite possible to live on our own terms. And you should not, not worth it! But what you can do is, believe in yourself, in who you are. Discover and find yourself from your own ashes. Remember you are priceless, a star that shines even in the darkest night. Value yourself if you want your loved ones to value you. Take yourself for granted....

Because for others you might be worth nothing. But to yourself you are worth everything. 

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When You Are Gone....

“I am going away with him to an unknown country where I shall have no past and no name, and where I shall be born again with a new face and an untried heart.”

I can't breathe. Air with it's invisible cruel hand, tries to throttle me. But every time i escape and i regret. I regret for being alive. I regret that i survive without you. I don't want days to favor me. I don't want the ticking clock to loan me more time. I don't need space. I don't want suffocation. I just want you. I want to fly with you. But my wings are broken...When you are gone. 

I am trying to feel free. I am moving on, but not with life. I am riding on wheels which have long lost their essence to be strong. I am weak on my knees. I hate this feeling, a feeling so hollow and empty. It never seems to go away. I am always amidst a crowd, laughing, smiling, sighing and dying within with loneliness....When you are gone. 

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I am tired. I am thirsty to take a look at you. I am thirsty to feel you in my arms again. I am going insane trying to make people hear me out. To scream at them to leave me alone. I am dying out waiting, waiting to whisper sinfully on your lips. Waiting to give my eyes some rest. Waiting for my solace to come back to me. Waiting for you to fulfill everything that I lost....When you are gone.

I want you to be happy. Very happy. I want you to fulfill all your dreams. I want you to come and tell me how you have been. I want to listen you speak, and make love to your voice along with the whole of you.

You are my reason to breathe, hope, survive, and finally live counting every moment waiting and asking myself, how long more do i have to wait before i can love you with fulfillment? 

Because you are gone.....


But i will be in you again, with you forever more like your shadow.....And i know such feelings are going to worth it in the end, it has been all the while before i met you. And it will be.

Furry Best Friends

Ok, so he can't talk....And that's the only thing he can't do. So what?

He feels. He listens to and understands every little thing you mention. Every little thing you tell him. He cries when you scold him, he growls when angry, he wakes you up from sleep, he follows you to bed. He clings on to all your trying to make it his own, he detests in sharing you with an outsider. He is possessive....yes!

He lends a patient ear when you talk to him because you feel lonely and you don't have anybody else to talk to. He sits beside you when you read, he keeps secrets. He welcomes guests and makes them feel warm. He tries to stop you when you are leaving for the day, and complains when you are back. Yet loves you because you are finally back home. 

He hates getting his ears pulled, but he would love biting and licking you till he is satisfied. He becomes too obedient when given a treat but can take away your sleep if it's time for his snack. 

He wakes people up early morning because it's time for his walk, but hates getting disturbed when he takes a nap under the bed. He  nudges you with his wet nose right in the middle of the night, he pushes you off the bed when he doesn't get enough space to sleep. 

He loves, he cares, he protects like a best friend. He gives you company when the world is silent. He protects you when you are alone, and consoles you when you are weeping your heart out. He struggles with you, give you all the happiness of the world. 

The only thing wrong with him - He doesn't expect, hope, and want anything in return. He does not hate, or conspire. He is not ungrateful nor is he unfaithful. He doesn't desire, dream or wish. 

I guess they are everything that we humans are not.....That is what sets them apart. Entirely apart from the rest of the world.

They are the furry best friends.

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Into The Oblivion

"Blue oblivion, largely lit, smiled and smiled at me..." - William R. Bennet. 

We always talk of memories. Memories that break us, walk with us, and of course make us. We live with them and relive them time and again. 

So, what do we not do?

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Have you ever thought about the things that do not run in our minds anymore? Things of the past that have gone into oblivion? During the course of our years, we think and act on all those  moments that we remember. We cry and laugh over them. We are deeply saddened about what is not there with us, and yet we feel heavy with the burden of memories that we carry around with us. 

But, if you think again you will realize that there are moments, time and people we have completely forgotten. Things that once were, and people who were once there in our lives. But not anymore....I am talking about those times of our lives when we had been hurt and shattered. But the funny part is, with time we moved on right? Have you ever thought why? How? 

It's simple. We forget things. We set them aside. We are human beings. It's in our nature to turn our back to the moments which have hurt us tried to destroy us. We don't understand this because it's so completely unintentional. 

And we are happy. It is now that is important to us. Not what has happened in the past. Past is darkness. Past is a never-ending canopy.

Just like we 'lead' our lives with memories in the bag. In the same way 'live' our lives storing the past into the oblivion. Burying them deep into the sea never to resurface again.....

Isn't it? 

A Lie In Every Truth...Someone Knows It

"Our sincerest laughter. With some pain is fraught" - P.B Shelly 

So you wear a mask,  and you carry it everywhere you go. To fool people. It's so easy to do it right? Because everyone around you does it too. 

You think it will end someday, but something new starts afresh making you even more tired than before. Some new lies, those lies which are buried deep inside every truth that one tries to speak. So you say something and you want to believe it yourself. You want the world to believe it too. But...Oh Shit! You are caught. Uh huh, don't worry, no one is really bothered to catch you by the collar. It's you who is caught in your own act when you are standing in front of the mirror and looking at your self, staring in those eyes...thinking "dude, whom are you fooling". Be careful, there is someone else who stares at them too.

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You talk and you talk, to hide the feelings inside you. The real feelings. You go on jabbering to hide the unidentified pain, thinking no one is going to notice. Thinking, you actually get away with what you speak. The truth?? Well, no not exactly.....

You can never run away from your loved one. They are invariably going to pluck out the lies in every truth that you try and utter. Did it happen with you? It has happened to me....several times....I have lost count basically.

You laugh, at least you try and give your best shot to make it sincere every time..but Ooopss! Hang on, there is this person sitting in front making you realize the 'lie' within.

While you are happy fooling the world around you ask questions to yourself. Millions of them, but you can never really find one answer to any of them. You go on consoling yourself that one day things will change and you will be happy. 


Yes, you will be only when you let that one person take control of your life. 

There are times when you are sick of truths. Just sick of even facing them because you know they are blended with lies, lies and lies.You feel so fatigued that you don't want to talk anymore, just want to hide, hibernate somewhere people would never find you out....But hey, you have to act as if everything is just so fine with you right?? 

Can you hide it from that person in your life? Don't even try to.

Respect, trust and love that person back for knowing you when the world still finds you a friendly stranger they met on the road.

That's where your happiness lies. That's what love is all about. That's your ray of hope. 

Broken Crystal...Shattered Glass...

“When it seems that someone has shattered your dreams....pick up even the smallest of pieces and use them to build bigger and better dreams.” 

A being...

Colorful walls of skin....furnishing emotions....garden full of blessings....rides of the heart...ripple of hopes.....tree of smiles.....waves of joy....

And then there is broken crystal...shattered mirror....scathed glass....

After all, it's a dream....bound to get shattered...after all it's a heart bound to get broken....

When a thing so beautiful as crystal, glass or a mirror accidentally slips out and shatters on the floor, what you find is a million small pieces lying still for you to pick each of the them up and finally dump them into the trash bin. Oh well, it might have been one of the most precious things for you. You might have got it as a gift from someone special in your life. 

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So for some days you grieve and moan and are utterly hapless all the while. But it's just for some days. Then you slowly forget about it, right? Or may be to replace that you buy yourself another one such stunner. After a couple of months while remembering it, don't you get this 'it-happens-so-what' feeling? 

It's exactly the same with life. People come and go. Things happens. Much doesn't! Some live the dreams with you. You live your own wishes. Some would never break your heart. But most of the times you would get your heart broken as if it was a mere crystal or get your dreams shattered as if they were nothing but dyed glasses. 


Each one of us have a tote bag full of unique dreams and wishes. They vary from a person to another in every way possible. What does one do when one of these are not fulfilled? 


Let's ask ourselves then, do we stop living after that? Do we tend to lose all meaning of life? Do we lose faith and belief? Do we stop wishing? Do we not begin again? Do we not start afresh? Do we not figure out the next chapter of our lives...?


Even as I jot these words down I feel it's funny to write such because we do tend to break down, tend to be traumatized, freaked out and in a trance. But you see life can't always be a 'Cloud 9', can it?


Certain situations and circumstances change us and we are never the same. We are hurt and completely at a loss. Yet, we rise with every new dawn so as to wake up and find sunshine awaiting us.  Most importantly, you can never get a rainbow without a little rain...


Just like as it's not that easy to  let go of a dream or anything else that you have lived for a long time, something so close to your heart, at the same time you would never find anyone talking of it being an impossible mission. 


"......pick up even the smallest of pieces and use them to build bigger and better dreams.” 

A Heart Never Lies...

“Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.”

What does one do when he/she needs to make a firm decision under a very compelling circumstance? It's interesting to learn how each one of  us deal with a particular situation at hand. Do we obediently listen to others or just listen to this thing called 'heart' which beats and thumps, and has dedicated every second of itself to keep us alive and breathing?

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Our life is filled with experiences. Serene and stormy, colorful and dull, good and bad, baffling and astonishing! They all connect at a place when all of these moments demand us to take a firm step or a foot down to reach a certain decisive point.  What's actually important to know is, how we react and what or to whom do we listen to while taking a step further towards another chapter....

This drives me to think if we have ever lent a patient ear to what our heart is speaking of? If you lock yourself up for sometime and silently try to figure out as to how you are going to come out with a solution which not only will make u happy but others around you too, then the best thing you can do is at least for once hear what your heart has to say. 

When a Heart speaks, remember that the ultimate assurance and strength is right around the corner. It might not strike you at first. You might just think that what it's trying to convey to you would be wrong and lead you nowhere. You even might have to fight your way out in the crowd trying to reason with them. Yet, in the long run when you rewind and visit the memory lanes,  you will be glad to know that you did just the right thing listening to this enigmatic heart of yours.

When you are in love with someone, when you think you have failed, when you need to choose between what's right and wrong, when you need to decide on the most important issues of your life, trust your heart....


Follow your heart.... Keep faith.. At the end your heart will be the only one to never let you down. It's going to be the only one never to hurt you....